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Thursday, December 15, 2011

Future Memory






Not too long ago I had a powerful waking dream. It was a vivid future memory, a deep memory from a time that has not yet happened. I remembered when the people of the Earth were divided in chaos, when the dominant culture threatened to destroy any chance of harmony on this planet. It was a moment of great turmoil on Earth, where the well-being of all creatures was in danger. And in that place of the future, oh so clearly, the memories came flooding back. I remember the turning. I remember the moment when people began to wake up, when both technology and our collective consciousness bound the far corners of the world tightly together. I remember when women all over the globe stood up, when they screamed "NO MORE!", when they clasped hands and took to the streets demanding change, demanding justice. I remember when the men joined them, when they refused to fuel the cycle of violence that had carried society thus far, when they sat down in the plaza to meditate, when they followed their hope out onto the streets and didn't look back. And the children, who at such a young age already understood so much about the word, I remember their voices ringing out, loud and proud, as helicopters circled the sky above them.
When they first occupied the streets, the goal was not clear to any of them, there were no stated objectives. There were divisions within the group and doubts about the desired outcome. However, no matter how much the mainstream media, the corporations and governments of the world sought to exploit their differences, the People were bound by one strong commonality that could not be torn down - they were passionately committed to fighting for justice. That passion and commitment was enough to carry an entire movement. The strategy, tactics and execution would all fall into place with time, patience and compassion.
In my memory the taste of victory was so clear. We stood triumphantly together, having fought an enemy so great the battle had seemed impossible to win. And yet we had. This wasn't just a daydream. This was an actual memory. I don't know how far in the future this memory came from, but I have to believe that it is true. It gives me hope and brings inspiration into those dark times when it seems like we are up against too much. I hesitate to write this, I hesitate to share this because it seems so impossible to believe. The world seems so blatantly fucked up right now. There is so much evidence that says we are completely doomed, and scant evidence that claims we've got a chance. But please, I beg of you to consider the possibility that we could come out of this era victoriously. Consider the possibility of living in a more harmonious world, one where systemic imbalance and rouge capitalism don't rule over 99% of us. Dare to dream, dare to believe that another future is possible. I know in my heart its true. You don't need to have all the answers in order to begin the work, perhaps the answers will arise in the process. I'm willing to participate in the process. I'm willing to question my own beliefs and willing to make different choices day to day. I'm willing to step out of my comfort zone. To educate myself. To use my physical body to stand up for what I believe in. I'm willing to be vulnerable.
I'm NOT willing to sit here complacently as our rights are cooly stripped away and corrupt politicians recklessly gamble with our future. I won't sit idly by as our planet is raped in the name of corporate greed. I won't sit and watch as a nameless system swallows us whole.
I remember the moment when people began to wake up...

Friday, September 30, 2011

Love on the Wind

Wishes in the wind.

So, so free.

No limits.


I breathe you out
watch you float gracefully on the wind
only in the open air
with your wings spread wide
do I begin to realize
the great heights you'll soar to.
As the light rays of the sun
illuminate the beautiful intricacies of your shape
I see your true form
and in the contrast of your shadow
the depth of your passion is revealed.

Friday, September 9, 2011

Symphonic Grace

Symphonic Grace

In the glowing light of sunset
I stood humbly before your temple
asked permission to kneel amongst your delicately adorned walls
to crawl inside your belly
and allow the edges of my body
to sweetly nestle against yours
in a seamless bond
reminiscent of the stars so perfectly at home in the sky.
The clamor of bells washed over me
an orchestra of shimmering beauty
that filled every vacant space inside
each vibration, each frequency a healing elixir
unlocking the ancient medicine
dormant inside our collective dream.
I watched you funnel tiny grains of sand
slowly through your aching fingers
as you remembered the pain of transition.
I gazed into your eyes,
saw the hope in your tears
as you prayed for a better world.
I saw the joy in your smile,
felt the peace in your heart
as you tasted the potent magic of our synched exhalation.
Surrounded by your heartfelt words,
secret little treasures caressing my eyes,
I peered gently into your depths.
Bells rang out in blissful honesty
a graceful symphony of innocent desire
inspiring laughter so full and so free
it escaped my lips like a mighty river
droplets of divinity returning home to the source.
In unspoken solidarity we unraveled the veil
that has shrouded our hearts and minds
woke up into the loving arms of our true family
stepped into our unique & magnanimous power,
and for just a moment,
knew -
we are one.

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Dreams Sting So Sweet - the collaborative book!

This first time mother-daughter collaboration captures, with wonder and awe, the rich and inspiring beauty of the Northern California landscape. Stunning photographs of nature's most beautiful treasures compliment a bold selection of poetry exploring our connection to earth, the wisdom of our hearts and the depths of our dreams. An honest and courageous journey through the elements intended to set your soul on fire!

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Reverser of Destiny



So they say judgement day is near. The rapture approaches. We've known many apocalyptic prophecies, some Christian based, some Mayan; they come from many cultures. Only time will reveal what is in store for us, but one thing is clear - it's a tumultuous time here on Earth. Scores of social problems from homelessness, mental dis-ease, unemployment, obesity, etc etc combined with a planet in revolt, hurricanes and tornados where there never were before and floods covering our cities while people simultaneously die of thirst for lack of access to clean drinking water.... yes, these are turbulent times. Many of us cry out for help. We pray for the answers, for solutions.
Solutions are all around us. As permaculture principles point out, the only limit to the number of solutions is our imagination. We are not lacking solutions, what we lack is the willpower to carry them out. You call out for peace, say you want harmony on Earth, but are you ready to embrace those ideals, to become them? Are you ready to accept all the terrifying beauty and ugliness of humanity into your heart? To love your enemies? To love fearlessly? Are you able to acknowledge and accept that your worldview is not TRUTH?
You fall into despair because all around you, you see the destruction of our world but are you ready to trade your car in for a bicycle? Are you ready to give up your cell phone in order to save the bees? Can you honor a promise not to purchase any virgin plastic? The questions go on...
I ask these questions of you not because I have the answers but because they are questions that I ask myself everyday. Am I ready to become this new vision I claim to believe in? Can I embody my own values? My passion and vision is a great start but it takes work to change the world.
In a tarot reading this morning I pulled the "Reversal" card, in other decks known as the Hanged Man.
"Reversal is a voluntary surrender or letting go of ways of being that are no longer useful... Negative thoughts and previous patterns are dissolving in the waters of consciousness to make way for positive affirmations of life. This card indicates a willingness to listen to your inner self and validate your changes. You then begin to see yourself as a changer, a reverser of your destiny instead of a victim of events. You become illuminated in the ecstatic light of these insights. Reversal can also be painful, as giving up old comfortable ways can be jarring and emotionally traumatic".
Become the reverser of your own destiny. Do whatever you can to listen deeply to yourself, to your fears and desires. Begin to recognize and release negative patterns. No one is going to hand you the key to happiness or to revolution, it is exists in the willingness of all of us to do the work, to make the changes necessary to restore balance in ourselves so that we may restore balance to our world.
"Reversal is an initiation process, a growth in spiritual awareness and a passage. We are stopped in time, "out on a limb" and entirely vulnerable. Our water reflection smiles back at us, guiding us on our way down a new path"



Sunday, April 24, 2011

Spiral Eyes

Spiralize

the view from here...

Transcend.

only love.

In such great flux
ideas swell in my head
flow through my body
collect at my fingertips
and long to be shared
heard
witnessed
reflected back upon
given validity.
Questioning gives rise to answers
appearing out of vapor
known before even asked
intuition at light speed
not a figuring out
as much as a remembering.
Unfolding beyond my own layers
touching a place so deep
nearly beyond perception
shielding my eyes against blindness
so I can soak in true beauty
so I may know it.
Comfort in groundlessness.
Groundlessness.
Groundlessness.
Ground. Less.
Having no ground
hurling through space
with nothing to reflect off
what are we?
Nothingness reflects
the nothing
we are not.
Quiet sadness yet comforted knowing.
Like the death of a dream
I truly believed was real
a dream so beautiful
letting go makes it hard to breathe
as I awaken into another day.
Eyes closed
turned toward the sun
slowly learning a new language
not of words or ideas
but visions gently dancing
amidst changing hues and densities
the red and pink
behind my own eyes,
flickering and shining
a delicate, playful mystery
beginning to unravel
this light of understanding
and of understood.

Sunday, April 17, 2011

Tangerine Conspiracy





Ok, here is the deal. Go to the below link and hit play, when the song gets to 2:03 - start reading. This was all stream of consciousness writing, no editing, just flow. hope you enjoy one of my favorite electronic music songs and feel some of the sweet love floating around out there in the ether....

Vibrasphere - Reservoir (Fiord RMX)


a tangerine dream
desire so pure
she speaks every language at once
he knows the taste of your soul
before its a thought
flashing in your mind.
everything you held true
glowing flowers
in the desert bright
gold and green
an epic dream
wind on your face
arms spread wide
heart bursting open
could this be love?
no barrier, no skin,
no body, no mind
delight in mystery
feet caress the earth
ancient rhythms guide the way
remembered
remembering
dreaming
awaking
floating in the heavens
eyes uplifted
souls rejoice
oh, can it be this beautiful?
I see you,
know you
peel back the layers
reveal complexities
tiny imperfections
swimming doubts
I SEE you.
we are one
we are all
hands clasped
flying together
finding joy
in the creases of the universe
elegantly unfolding
becoming
realizing
speaking, screaming, singing
transcending flesh
hearing the call
of those who came before
listening to the wise ones
their messages anchored in our bellies
contained in our tears
this is what it means
to be free,
this is what love
feels like.
You are love,
an ever evolving miracle
encoded to survive
embedded in our DNA,
creative blueprints
to guide us through
valleys
mountains
rivers
wars
injustice
destruction.
silent weavers
we are our own saviors
dancing our destiny
reclaiming our fate
transforming
our reality
painting beauty on our horizon
opening our hearts
letting tears fall
creating music that breaks us down
rips us open
leaves us raw
seeing for the first time
how it could be
how we actually are.
we dance around a fire
bearing knowledge
older than time
from places unimagined
future and past at once.
We will survive,
we will dance our truths
savor every flavor
every glimpse
of this inspired flow
Intuitively knowing the answers
to questions we have yet to ask
this feeling of lost, of lonely
melts in the warmth
of our hearts
comforted by our innocent tears.
The tangerine conspiracy ripens
we know truth
not as dogma
not as fiction
not words or
even ideas
but as vibration
reverb against your cell walls
stand up
stand up
stand up
stand up.
So much
to live for
to die for
to love for
find your freakquency
let it carry you
let it crack your heart open...





Saturday, March 5, 2011

Out of Grief, A Rising










The closer I get to the Earth, the louder I hear her scream. Her cries wake me in the night. I sit up, sobbing into the darkness. Why can't you see? Why can't you see what you are doing to her?
In my dreams, the Earth shakes in rebellion against countless atrocities committed against her. Buildings tremor and topple, dust clouds saturate the air. Once paved streets run thick with mud, slick with oil, littered with toxic by-products of our chemical warfare. And in the chaos, screaming people run around with fists full of dollars, panic in their eyes and fear in their hearts as they try to buy their way to safety. But there isn't any safety to buy. Your money is useless now, don't you see? I scream at them, Forget about money and help each other. Are these words in vain, does anybody hear me?
You see, the Earth, she is my Mother, she gifts me with Life. She is my sister, we're born of the same bone. We are bathed and nourished by the same rain. And when she aches, I cry out. When she suffers, it tortures me inside. Her pain enters my own body; manifests as confusion and frustration in my mind; tightness in my heart; distance in my relationships. When I look around I see people with gaping wounds, so raw they bleed. We are all interconnected. We do not exist separately. When one of us suffers, we all suffer.
The Earth, she cries and cries and cries. And so do I. But I want you to know Mother, I hear your call for help. I hear your screams. And I won't ignore you. I'll let my voice be a channel. I'll sing proudly in your honor, make art with your name all over it, bake cupcakes for you, dance for hours on end with my brothers and sisters so that we may Remember where we came from, where we will return to. I'll keep showing up to do the work. And the work will be joyous, because when all my allies align, together we make magic. I'll kneel at the shores of your great ocean time and again, offering you my tears and being cleansed by your vast depths. I will listen. I'm not afraid to break my heart open even further to allow your healing love to fill the cracks. I will take care of my physical body and my energetic body so I may be an even clearer channel for you to speak through. I'll keep listening. And if I can't hear you anymore, I'll dig my fingers deeper into your soil until I feel you, until I feel your heartbeat. And I'll arise.

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Intentional Indecision

Energize & Restore



Quiet mind

Winter. 
I came crashing down from the fast paced, light hearted summer months, filtered through the physical, simple and oh-so-satisfying work that comes with harvest time and landed in a cold and lonely pile at the foot of my proverbial bed. Slowed to a near stop, sleep schedule altered, sleeping til noon becomes the norm. With no major projects to focus on, I have a lot of time to think. In self-imposed isolation, so much space for the mind to wander through. How to digest all these thoughts, this reflection off asphalt that makes me question with every ounce of my being, where are we headed? and what role do I play in getting us there? Questioning my sanity and the sanity of those around me, I wonder why more people aren't completely flipping out, unable to withstand this industrial culture we are a part of. I get lost in the mess of my mind, searching for meaning in the mundane and finding none. This is not unfamiliar territory to me. I recognize this cycle, this longing for some greater purpose, for satisfaction and fulfillment. Although I've covered this ground many times before, it doesn't make the despair any less painful.  I couldn't move, I hid under the covers, I cried, I certainly didn't answer the phone. I bottomed out in a deep flu, staid in bed for four miserable days of headaches and intense pain in my hips.
Fortunately, I recovered enough to attend a ceremony with a group of sisters that brought about some much needed revelations. I realized that I am covered in a mountain of grief and despair over what is happening in our world and the weight of it has caused complete paralysis. I released as much of this grief as I could, acknowledging that there is much I can't let go of yet. I activated my strength and courage to break free of this paralysis so that I'm able to focus on the real work that must be done. It's important to me to acknowledge the despair and not just turn away from it. I won't pretend everything is rose colored, it doesn't serve me or anyone else to ignore this grief because it is not irrational rather its based in realistic evidence.
Determined to break out of the funk but still not ready to make any major decisions, I decided to begin a regular practice of yoga. Not just any yoga, Bikram yoga. This is my first experience with Bikram yoga and it is intense. Each class is 90 minutes long and it takes place in a room that is heated to 105 F. You do 2 sets of 26 postures that are supposed to work all the major systems within the body, compressing internal organs and lymph nodes. Its very challenging to make it through the entire class, but incredibly satisfying when you do. I've been experiencing some crazy detox symptoms such as headaches, a lot of activity in my gut, and emotional releases very similar to reactions I've had from seasonal cleanses. Finishing a class I feel like I've accomplished something. At a time when I'm feeling very ungrounded, it helps me to shift the focus from my ever reeling mind, to my body. When I finished my class yesterday, I bowed down in gratitude to my determination and to Mother Earth. I'm doing this for you, I remember thinking. The efforts of my practice are an offering to her, to counter just some of the injustice committed against her everyday. If I am a warrior, I need a strong physical body to match a strong mind. I need a healthy and fit base to carry out this work, whatever it may be. After one week of yoga I am feeling more centered and motivated. My muscles are so sore and I'm still dealing with some weird side effects of such intense exercise but I keep going to class. 
I could have chosen anything to focus on but I happened to chose yoga; the magic doesn't come from the act itself, but from the act of simply doing. My mind feels more relaxed, I have moments of anxiety still but I move through them. I'm using this time of intentional indecision to sort out what it is I really want and need before I leap right into the next thing.